Unmet expectations.

I’m angry that I’m vulnerable.

I’m angry that I trusted.

I hate how much I think it means to me.

My heart has been so battered.

There’s wine and love around me, but I use them just to numb

everything. Because i don’t feel pain

I never feel a thing. That’s why I drink. i start to feel when

the warmth tickles my nervous system the way your attitude

tickled my thoughts. You made me feel.

And to a girl who fought her entire life to be numb?

Making me feel was irreplaceable.

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To fall in love with a complete stranger.

It was a sunny New York winter day. The kind that almost felt like it was still fall.

I was in a coffee shop, reading a novel. Romantic, right?

But then I saw him. His sparkling blue eyes met mine and I knew we were meant to be.

I shyly glanced away, but when I looked back up, his gaze met mine yet again.

We half-smiled.

I couldn’t bear it. I looked again, and I knew. It was love at first sight.

He met my eyes and his face lit up. This was a real smile.

It was almost as if he read my mind. I glanced away and so did he.

When he walked out of that coffee shop, I knew I would never see him again.

Such is the tragic state of love in New York City.